There was a new peace.
There was a new peace.
she can feel herself suffocating.
Resentment seeps out of my pours
runs like spider veins, black veins
where it chokes me,
not enough to kill, but enough to make me feel rage
makes…
mother’s day.
the day when the rest of the world
is celebrating and cherishing,
and i am here,
remembering you.
There’s a shadow that haunts me,
funny how it walks like you.
Always picking up my own pieces;
always one piece short of a puzzle;
always drowning in what feels like shame.
What the fuck is wrong with me?
stranger tides have come
brought by strange seas
currents i never thought
i’d be caught swimmin’ in.
yet, here i am.
stranger’s eyes,
strange,stranger lies.
crazy fish, fisherman.
water’s filled with plastic
monster trash dreams
could you be my heaven,
just for a little while.
you don’t have to stay forever,
just let me see you smile.
be a safe haven for my soul,
im not asking for forever,
just for a little while,
do you mind to just be here
with me for right now?
ive been uppin’ for so long,
i dont want to come down.
im not asking for much,
just a safe place to lay my head
it doesn’t matter to me,
if its in your bed.
take what you want from me
ill leave my clothes on the floor
just please, could you be
my heaven for a minute more.
im so tired, love,
exhausted, just let me sleep,
just for tonight, i swear
in the momrning i’ll leave.
i hate the heat that swells behind my eyes
tears that burn
i was starving,
and there you were.
then gone,
like a ghost.
wish you’d just say,
what i did wrong.
give me something to go on.
closure.
i thought you were different
i know you are.
i can see it.
maybe i was wrong,
maybe you were…